No holiday for me

I think I can officially say I hate Thanksgiving now. Last year my grandmother was driving home from having Thanksgiving dinner at our house and she was hit by a guy on drugs and died 2 weeks later from the horrible injuries she suffered. I can’t tell you how awful it was and I am still not the same. I have been dreading the approaching holiday and just wanted it to be over. I am supposed to be 11 weeks pregnant with a baby who’s due date is my grandmothers birthday and I have been thinking of that a lot this past week. I had been looking forward to my Dr visit and ultrasound today but was shocked and horrified to find that the baby had died. I will now be in the process of having a miscarriage this thanksgiving. I just want to crawl into a hole and cry and wake up in spring and be pregnant again. This blog of ours is supposed to focus on the positive and celebrate our family but I can’t do that tonight. This next week or two can’t fly by fast enough for me. I have told everyone I know and tons of casual acquaintances that I’m pregnant and now I have to tell them I’m not and have a D&C and mourn this baby we lost. Sometime life really sucks.

 

I think I’ll buy Jamie these Huggalugs

Here are Huggalugs leg warmer things I’d like to try with Jamie. I think they are novel and trendy BUT the main appeal for me is that they won’t be outgrown right away. Right now the tights I have for Jamie are either too small or they are too big and baggy. These have the potential to last for years. I found them at the opinionated parent site (see the blogs we link to below right) and entered the contest but I’m not feeling lucky so maybe I’ll just buy them (the flowery ones of course).