2 weeks to go!
In EXACTLY 2 weeks from this moment John and I will be driving to the hospital to have our 4th (and last) baby. I am not sure how I feel anymore… am I “ready” to have a newborn again… do I feel “ready” to be not pregnant? I have never been pregnant before when I wasn’t sure that I would be pregnant again in the future. This time should be my last time being pregnant and as much as I turn into a major grump during most of my pregnant months, I will miss it and its sad. 4 kids: 2 boys and 2 girls - thats perfect, why mess with that? More would be CRAZY! Some people feel “done” after a certain number of kids but I fear I will always want another baby! I really hope 4 makes me feel done and I don’t feel like we’re missing out on another wonderful kid that we could be having! I know we should be done logically and to help that sink in I have been giving away ALL of the baby boy-5T clothes from the boys. As soon as this baby outgrows things I plan to give them away. Will that wonderful feeling of decluttering make me feel “done”? OH I better stop writing… 3 kids just ran over to me and one of them has a stinky diaper!
Hi, Heather, you may not be ready to have another newborn today, but you will fall head over heels in love with her the moment you see her. Please enjoy each and every moment of it. I’m living with the regret of not having a third baby (my husband Pat didn’t want another and I had to respect that), but it’s not so bad. You’ll be fine, and I can’t wait to read all the details, if you have time to write!! I really love it when you share your feelings about this adventure of parenting. Take care.